Facing Downe But Looking Up

Queer. Asian. Educated. Early 20's.

Things are hard but I’m an optimist at heart. I’m facing downe but looking up.

All Day Every Day.
The Plan I’ve had a game plan written down in my journal since my last boyfriend; not necessarily an agenda of getting over him (because actually in the last case, I broke it off with him) but more on the lines of getting my life straight.  Here is the check off list (after the falling out): Let him go through the motions: Cry about me Get angry with me Let him rebound with random boys Realize the incompatibility and our mistakes Ask for my forgiveness (“There’s nothing to be sorry for) Understand I’m not coming back Repeat the steps one more time Cut off communication and live separate, happy lives Graduate Get a promotion or a better job Build me Get the ideal body Casually date Filter out friends** Fix relationship with family Run marathons Go on a life changing trip Enjoy being young and single Move out and relocate Go back to school Get a dog Settle down? As of yet, I am currently on step number four of getting my life straight; everything else you can cross off the list of things to do (you can pencil in there somewhere “get a boyfriend” but I figure that’ll happen randomly rather than a specific point in my life). This isn’t set in stone either; I mean, I’m sure the itinerary will have items added and taken away from it. You’ll notice that I’ve starred “Filter out friends.”  I know it may be hard for some to realize it now; but I’ve discovered that the 1000+ friends that you have on Facebook really is simply a number of people you’ve connected with in the past.  For the people that I can actually call true friends that I see on a regular basis, there’s probably only a handful; just about twenty to thirty.  Not saying that those twenty to thirty people will always be the same; after all, who can really predict the future? To be more specific on item number four, I am at “go on a life changing trip.”  I am planning in July to go to New York with four other friends which I’m truly excited for.  After which, I will be at “enjoy being young and single.” Who knows how long that period is going to last but after you’ve built the perfect relationship with yourself, you’re pretty much ready to show it to the world or share it with someone else.  One very important thing to note is to know your level.  I mean, at this point, I want to know where I’m at in life and who else is up there with me; as in, who’s on the same page as me, who’s at the same stage as me, and in essence who’s on the same level as me.  I don’t deserve anything more nor anything less. Anyways, things will most definitely be added onto my game plan as time continues. You all should make a game plan just in case you ever get lost. The Plan I’ve had a game plan written down in my journal since my last boyfriend; not necessarily an agenda of getting over him (because actually in the last case, I broke it off with him) but more on the lines of getting my life straight.  Here is the check off list (after the falling out): Let him go through the motions: Cry about me Get angry with me Let him rebound with random boys Realize the incompatibility and our mistakes Ask for my forgiveness (“There’s nothing to be sorry for) Understand I’m not coming back Repeat the steps one more time Cut off communication and live separate, happy lives Graduate Get a promotion or a better job Build me Get the ideal body Casually date Filter out friends** Fix relationship with family Run marathons Go on a life changing trip Enjoy being young and single Move out and relocate Go back to school Get a dog Settle down? As of yet, I am currently on step number four of getting my life straight; everything else you can cross off the list of things to do (you can pencil in there somewhere “get a boyfriend” but I figure that’ll happen randomly rather than a specific point in my life). This isn’t set in stone either; I mean, I’m sure the itinerary will have items added and taken away from it. You’ll notice that I’ve starred “Filter out friends.”  I know it may be hard for some to realize it now; but I’ve discovered that the 1000+ friends that you have on Facebook really is simply a number of people you’ve connected with in the past.  For the people that I can actually call true friends that I see on a regular basis, there’s probably only a handful; just about twenty to thirty.  Not saying that those twenty to thirty people will always be the same; after all, who can really predict the future? To be more specific on item number four, I am at “go on a life changing trip.”  I am planning in July to go to New York with four other friends which I’m truly excited for.  After which, I will be at “enjoy being young and single.” Who knows how long that period is going to last but after you’ve built the perfect relationship with yourself, you’re pretty much ready to show it to the world or share it with someone else.  One very important thing to note is to know your level.  I mean, at this point, I want to know where I’m at in life and who else is up there with me; as in, who’s on the same page as me, who’s at the same stage as me, and in essence who’s on the same level as me.  I don’t deserve anything more nor anything less. Anyways, things will most definitely be added onto my game plan as time continues. You all should make a game plan just in case you ever get lost.

The Plan

I’ve had a game plan written down in my journal since my last boyfriend; not necessarily an agenda of getting over him (because actually in the last case, I broke it off with him) but more on the lines of getting my life straight.  Here is the check off list (after the falling out):

  1. Let him go through the motions:
    • Cry about me
    • Get angry with me
    • Let him rebound with random boys
    • Realize the incompatibility and our mistakes
    • Ask for my forgiveness (“There’s nothing to be sorry for
      )
    • Understand I’m not coming back
    • Repeat the steps one more time
    • Cut off communication and live separate, happy lives
  2. Graduate
  3. Get a promotion or a better job
  4. Build me
    • Get the ideal body
    • Casually date
    • Filter out friends**
    • Fix relationship with family
    • Run marathons
    • Go on a life changing trip
    • Enjoy being young and single
  5. Move out and relocate
  6. Go back to school
  7. Get a dog
  8. Settle down?

As of yet, I am currently on step number four of getting my life straight; everything else you can cross off the list of things to do (you can pencil in there somewhere “get a boyfriend” but I figure that’ll happen randomly rather than a specific point in my life).

This isn’t set in stone either; I mean, I’m sure the itinerary will have items added and taken away from it.

You’ll notice that I’ve starred “Filter out friends.”  I know it may be hard for some to realize it now; but I’ve discovered that the 1000+ friends that you have on Facebook really is simply a number of people you’ve connected with in the past.  For the people that I can actually call true friends that I see on a regular basis, there’s probably only a handful; just about twenty to thirty.  Not saying that those twenty to thirty people will always be the same; after all, who can really predict the future?

To be more specific on item number four, I am at “go on a life changing trip.”  I am planning in July to go to New York with four other friends which I’m truly excited for.  After which, I will be at “enjoy being young and single.”

Who knows how long that period is going to last but after you’ve built the perfect relationship with yourself, you’re pretty much ready to show it to the world or share it with someone else.  One very important thing to note is to know your level.  I mean, at this point, I want to know where I’m at in life and who else is up there with me; as in, who’s on the same page as me, who’s at the same stage as me, and in essence who’s on the same level as me.  I don’t deserve anything more nor anything less.

Anyways, things will most definitely be added onto my game plan as time continues.

You all should make a game plan just in case you ever get lost.